The start of a new year (2017)

Hello again old friend. Welcome to 2017. Where there is an emoji for everything. No, seriously. 🌮🍩🍾🍹🍷 I'm really bad at keeping this updated so here we go. I'm 25 now and I currently live in Bryn Mawr, PA and am attending graduate school at Villanova University. I love it so far. I also work at the Chilis up here and I have a work-study in the prop shop. My first semester of classes included Script Analysis, Principles of Acting & Dramaturgy. It was a great semester, and my brain has definitely expanded. Especially after brain workout Valerie gave us all in Script Analysis. After this semester, I will never look at Hamlet the same.

We visited the art museum, made tableaux on campus, I performed in a scene from both Night Mother and The Three Sisters and worked on those damn benches in Marisol for hours. I also somehow maneuvered a trip to London with Cameron that had been planned before I even applied to graduate schools We got to see Harry Potter and the Cursed Child and explore the art and charm of the city for ten nights.

I saw Stupid F*ing Bird at the Arden, which was stunning. And Streetcar named Desire, a fringe show with past Villanova students that was equally as stunning and beautiful.

Celeste came up at the end of classes and we had a grand adventure with snow and a trip to NYC to see the Rockefeller Christmas tree and catch a Broadway show.

I am now working on Lagan, as an ASM at Villanova. It's been a great rehearsal process so far.

Classes start Tuesday; I'm taking Teaching of Theatre, Dramaturgy, and Playwriting ( dramaturgy is a two part class)

I also got approved for the event Play in a Day! At Villanova so that should be coming up soon. Looking forward to getting back into classes.

I was just reading over my old posts and saw the one about Frank...he passed away right after I moved up here to Philly. I got to see him right before when I was in a Rhode Island with my dad for July 4th. My dad said he would come back to see him, but his plans got changed.

For Christmas we went and saw his gravesite. It's right near the water on the same river where he used to take  us on his boy when I was.a kid. Rest In Peace Frank, we miss you already.

It has been a whileeee

Wow, so its been almost 4 years since I've been on here and honestly I haven't written much in that time period. Here and there it just feels good to write. So I'm still living in Tampa...I graduated with my Bachelor of Art's Theatre Degree in Spring 2014. I bartend and serve at Chili's still. I feel like I missed writing all the best parts of my college experience, but that's because I was too busy living the experience..There were a lot of great friends, a lot of long nights, so much EDM, beer pong for days, and truly the best memories. I had two serious relationships with two great guys, Marcus and Greg. I have so many great memories with both of these men during my college years experiencing EDC,going to shows in Ybor, time with family, and having a great time with their circle of friends. Great memories, but obviously it just didn't work out. I have kind of enjoyed the single life once again, trying to decide what move to take next on my career path. I currently work with a company AIM, on productions when needed,which is a youth theatre education program that I love. I'm  also about to begin instructing at a studio which I'm very excited about. I have learned that the 20's sure are hard. You're at the age where your family starts asking what you wanna do with your life, what are you gonna do with a theatre degree, have you met anybody? The questions are never ending. They don't mean it in a bad way, but they just don't know that we don't know! My passion is theatre,but there are 1000 different paths I could take to lead down different side branches of theatre and its all quite confusing. And then there's love. Oh, how hard it is to be a hopeless romantic nowadays. Relationships are so different and hard. Very hard. We are in the age of tinder, and match.com and eharmony. You search through men swiping left or right,going so fast that your soulmate could easily be hidden. But who finds true love on the internet? But how do people even meet people nowadays? Everyone goes out and stays in their own little cliques....or goes out in couples. You can't just "meet" your soulmate. There is no formula for it....you don't know when, who, what, or how it's going to happen, but you just keep hoping and praying that the day will come that you find that one person who will love you the way you want to be loved and you will love them even more than that. But anyways, the 20's are hard. The truth is I'm a Bartender working at Chili's trying to figure out what to do with this piece of paper that cost alot of money to get. My heart is in theatre- and my heart is also in the North...I contemplate moving up there alot. Boston is on my mind now. I live with Celeste now who I work with as well. She came with me to Rhode Island for a summer trip and we took the train to Boston for the night. It was such an awesome city. So artsy and so alive. I want to apply to Grad school in Boston...I really really do. We will see what happens. I just turned 24 a couple days ago..yikes. I feel old...where did the time go? Spent my birthday with my wonderful Tampa friends Amanda,Steff, Celeste,and Jess and we went to Jackson's. We got VIP and had a great time with Ciroc lol. Right now I'm just working and saving money and going with the flow....Not much else to say I guess...Waiting for my heart to know the deeper questions in my life...like where my heart belongs, or a future husband. For now I am trying to better myself, auditiion, work multiple theatre teaching jobs,bartend,meet people off Tinder because hey why not? I'm young and have a traveling soul and I definitely have to get some globe trotting done before i hopefully settle down one day...hopefully I'm not a cat lady forever..lol. Oh yeah, I have a cat....his name is Mufasa. Meow.

Busch Gardens!

I forgot to put in my last post that Amanda and I got year passes to Busch Gardens. We went yesterday and it was a blast. There was NO line for any roller coaster so we got to go on all of them and see a bunch of animals within 3 hrs. I kept saying that I wanted to see the flamingos all day, and I definitely got to see a bunch. We also went on a safari type ride thing and saw a pretty awesome rhino and zebras up close. Sheikra was terrifying yet again. As we sit down and buckle up, the guy comes by and checks my belt really quickly. Amanda and I are freaking out and I yell to the guy "Will you double check mine?" and he did, just to please me. Once the ride took off me and Amanda were just saying omg omg omg over and over again and I definitely prayed really really hard. And obviously we survived. It was fun after the first drop and all the screaming. Next time we are going to feed the kangaroos! lol :)

Tampa Life so far.

I haven't wrote in a long time, but I just haven't been in the writing mood I guess. I started reading through my old posts today and I kind of miss keeping a sort of internet diary. So I guess I'll try to do a little update again....Hmmm well I finished my Associates Degree at South Florida Community College and then moved with my best friend Amanda to Tampa to attend USF. We live together in a 4 bedroom apartment with two other roommates. School is great so far. I am a Theatre Arts Major and love the people I hang out with everyday. This semester I'm taking Script Analysis, Intro to Tech Theatre, Life After Death and Voice,Body,Improvisation. I met some friends Crystal, Faith,and Galloway at orientation and now we have almost every class together and we hang out alot. Intro to Tech Theatre is a blast. The first day in lab, or The Shop, our professor Mike taught Crystal how to swing dance. Three rules Mike has: Number one: Don't do anything to get me fired, Number two: no showtunes. Number three: The shop must be danceable by 5 o clock. Yeah, he's a pretty cool guy. He also wears a different colored bandana around his 80's styled hair everyday. VBI is also a really amazing class. Our professor is Rosemary and everyday we get in a circle and do warmup activities and then very bizarre assignments. We all had to share a personal story the first couple days and it got serious very quickly. Its kind of cool to learn something deep about someone before you really know them, it kind of breaks them down and makes them vulnerable and more willing to open up and be your friend. I shared my story about my old best friend. I teared up a little, but I didn't cry. Which is a big step for me. I still miss him like crazy, but I have got to move on with my life. In a way, I think things happened the way they did so that I could have this opportunity to study something I love and get out of Sebring. Another assignment we had was to do a sound and movement piece with the sounds of our names. It was very challenging for me, but others did very well. Script Analysis is a fun class too. Our professor Kerry is such an inspirational kind of guy. He has been ALL over the world and his a very cultured person. On our first day of class I was so caught up in his words. He told us all to go to the flea market one day and just sit there and people watch, or go to an art gallery, or see lots of live theatre, or take a martial arts class. To do everything we possibly could to make ourselves cultured as well. I thought it was very moving in a way. I transferred my job at Chili's, and now work at the one located on Fowler. So does Amanda. Its been pretty good so far. Lots of hours and pretty decent money. I miss the managers from Sebring, but I also like the managers here so far. The Tampa party life has been kind of chill so far, but that's ok. We went to a Neon party at the Amp recently. It was a lot of fun, a lot of glowsticks were thrown at us and there was some very cute guys as well ;) Well that's it for now. I need to stop writing and start reading and doing homework! If you are reading this then you must be very bored and even more bored with this post....sorry to both.

Until next time,

Heather

When Will it Disappear?

So I haven't written a post in a while & a lot has changed & I'm definitely in the mood for writing right now...I guess it just helps me get everything off my chest.

Umm...where to start? I'll start off easy, lol.
Right now I'm in fall term at school taking four classes. I am loving Photography, but my other three classes are killing me! I am also rehearsing right now for the play Oklahoma! I play the part of Ado Annie and I am really starting to get into my character & enjoy it.

Besides that I've been hanging out with my bestie Amanda all the time partying it up!We just recently went on a random road trip to see the sunrise at the beach...it was hilarious lol!

Now for the harder parts. I have been really depressed lately and let me tell you it sucks. I have gained all my weight back and I'm just not the old Heather I used to be.

My bestest friend in the entire world, the closest person to me that I could tell anything to and who I got soooo close with this year, is completely out of my life. I still don't know how to handle this. Pretty much he is attending a private college this year that says we are not allowed to be close friends the way we were this year because it promotes the wrong thing i guess? I don't know. Apparently we're not even allowed to go to a public place together to have dinner, because it would look like we're dating and dating is not allowed there. To go from seeing someone everyday, calling and texting them as soon as they left your house, missing them when you dont see them for a day to.....nothing. It is so heart wrenching I can not even begin to explain to you. I have cried too many tears and laid in bed for too many hours. But it still hurts and I still care. Even though everyone tells me I have to let go and move on with my life...how can I do that? I love him. I always have. Always & Forever. But a lot can happen in a year...and I told him that. I mean what if we died tomorrow? Then we would never get a chance to fix this horrible separation all because of this school. I hate it. And I really hate to admit that I feel like this school is tearing me away from God and that is the worst possible thing that can happen. But all I keep thinking is if this Christian school tears everyone's relationships apart, how am I supposed to believe in it? But I know God will get me through this. Somehow I will find the strength to move on and say I don't need you. I just have to pray and not let this school come in my way. I just wish things could go back to the way they were...and I know they will never ever be that way again. It breaks my heart. Thank God for my friends Amanda and Cameron who are always there for me. The other thing that sucks is Cameron recently started school in Lakeland so I dont see him nearly as much as I used to. It really hurts I feel like all at once my best friends left me..but one was a little different than the other. I guess only time will tell what will happen. I just hate that I let it get to me so much and he has already moved on with his life....crazy this life huh? So anyways...that's the update for now. I'm just gonna continue doing my thing with school, theatre, and the awesome friends I still have :) Oh & P.S., on a happier note I just watched Avatar for the second time...that movie is amazing gosh, I think I cried a little lol!!

Wow...Time to Give An Update.

My last post was in January...boy where to start? In March, the play I was in "Into The Woods" opened and we had a really good run. I really enjoyed playing the part of Little Red Riding Hood.

The week after the play I got a tattoo. Let's just say my mother freaked. I shocked her, and I'm sorry that I upset her, but I love my tattoo. It is definitely an expression of who I am. It has multiple meanings in my life. The quote, "The greatest thing ever learned is just to love and be loved in return" is from my favorite movie which is a musical and musicals will always be a part of my life. The quote also means to me that I have to open myself up to people, which is something I really need to learn and is the reason why my past relationships have not worked out. And the quote also relates to my relationship with Jesus Christ. He loves me, he loved me so much the day he died for me on that cross and I love him so much. The cross also represents this. And the dove is just an expression of my style and my sense of freedom. This tattoo is me and I do not regret getting it for one second :)

Hmm...what else? Well my Dad is starting a business; a car dealership. He wants me and my mom both to work for him so right now I am holding off on getting a job..so funds are getting low lol. Getting the business started has been a challenge for the family, to say the least. Lots of fighting and crying, that's for sure.

Another business I am doing on the side is selling stuff on Amazon & Ebay. I just started selling stuff on Amazon tonight and let me tell you...its addicting! lol. I put a bunch of things on tonight and already sold 4 things! I started looking around for more things to sell already, lol.

School is over for the summer, thank god :)
I got a 3.7 GPA this semester & I am pretty proud of myself.
I already signed up for my fall classes; I am taking Photography, Speech, Astronomy, Sociology and British Literature...this should be fun, hopefully lol.

This summer I have a few things planned which I am excited about. #1 I got cast in HLT's first Murder Mystery"Honeymoon from Hell" as Bambi, I can't wait :)
#2 I should be going with my Dad to Rhode Island in a few weeks, I can't wait to visit my family & friends :)
#3 I am volunteering for GBC's Vacation Bible School which should be fun :)

Besides that I just plan on partying it up with friends and hitting the beach!
I am really happy that recently me and my friend Amanda Vizcaino have been hanging out a lot more often. She was my best friend from 8th grade til the beginning of Junior Year and I have missed her like crazyyyy these last two years! She is now my gym buddy & my party buddy since we always party it up at her house lol. Love you Amanda Vizcaino!

And my other best friend, Christopher Friend is graduating in a few weeks which is also really exciting. I am really proud of him :) I just hope he can make up his damn mind about what he wants to do after high school! haha Just Kidding! I am horrible at making decisions and I have no room to talk. But I just want him to be happy & stop confusing me with all these different plans lol!

Well I think that's a pretty darn good update. Hope all is well in the lives of whoever is reading this. May God Bless You!

Yours Truly,
Heather Lemos

I wish you could see what you're doing to the ones that love you.

There's a man that I knew growing up. He is like an Uncle to me. He is my Dad's best friend. And he is also a Heroin addict. He has almost died two or three times now, but God has saved him for some unknown reason and he does not realize how lucky and special he is.

He has two daughters who he never sees and a mother who has been put through hell seeing him throw his life away.

A couple years ago the doctors said he had days to live. My parents flew up to say goodbye to them and I stayed at home by myself. One day as I was driving home from school I just lost it, started bawling uncontrollably. And just prayed that God would save him, this man who so many people love and who has touched my heart. And he did. He saved him. Even as I type this tears roll down my cheek...

He has made so many mistakes in his life, but he has done good as well. He was always there for my family when I was younger and he used to be so fun. I just remember always smiling when I was near him and how much of an Uncle figure he became for me.

I just wish he could see how this is destroying his family, my Dad, and even me. Everyone is starting to give up on him...even his Mom. But my Dad refuses to. And that really touches my heart.

I refuse to give up on him either. My God is an amazing God, who does miracles and I believe that this man's life is not over yet and he still has many other hearts to touch on this planet.

I pray for him, for his recovery, and for him to find the will to stop doing drugs and to become a better person, and be there for his family and friends.

I pray that he lets God into his heart and realizes the errors of his ways.

I pray that I don't have to go to his funeral in the next couple of years and see my Dad cry over an amazing friend who has destroyed himself.

I pray that one day he will go back to the way he was in the old days and be my Uncle figure once more.

Why do things happen like this? Why do people do drugs to feel better, when all it does is destroy their health and the people around them??

He may not be my best friend, but he is a part of my life and I will never forget him. And I hope, I pray that God has amazing plans for him in the future, that is life is not over yet.

Never Give Up Hope.

Until Next Time,
Heather